Well. I'm starting this blog after a visit to the paediatrician today with my younger daughter which brought some shock news that she may be diagnosed with autism.
The paediatrician visit was via a referral from a speech therapist - we noticed youngest daughter's speech was not clear and behind where it should be from about the age of 2, and so had referred her on ourselves at that point.
After sitting with this doctor and being asked several questions, it brought home to me how easy it is to forget about things that have happened in the past, or even that happen on a semi-regular basis, and so I'm intending to keep this blog as a kind of diary going forward to remind us what happened when. I'll also go back over what has happened to date, and it'll probably be full of emotion and lots of questions, so no promises it'll be easy to read!
I suppose the first thing to say is that I'm feeling a lot of different things right now - relief, guilt, sadness, loneliness, like I'm at the start of a long journey - and that I've got a million questions, with no idea where to start. I've also got tonsillitis, the gas man due tomorrow (and no that isn't a euphemism, our heating is not working properly!), a husband in late who I need to talk to and I'm very tired, so it's most likely I'll be ending this blog before I've even properly begun, and starting on it again in the morning.
But before I go, I just want to say I love both my daughters very much indeed :)